| songs |
[Nov. 14th, 2003|12:43 pm] |
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| | take a gander | ] |
when i showed up
and he was there
i tried my best
to grin and bear
you and i
are like when fire
and the ocean floor collide
tonight i'll stare
at everything and see nothing,
and i can't believe
that this is me.
pitch black and no one
isn't that what i always wanted,
and it's been all i've had
for so long,
it'll be all i need
until the day i die...
sometimes it seems
like all i hoped for
just gets thrown down on the floor
and it seems like you dont
love me anymore
And we say goodbye
and go underground
Or up towards the sky
Up in smoke burnt down to size
At least we're still friends,
at least we're still alive
Well love is a bitch all relationships end.
What happens now
When that persons gone.
The one who you thought
You could always count on.
You fall in love
And they fall out.
Love is a bitch.
All realationships end.
How do I let go of a love
That meant so much to me.
How do I go on
When your part of me.
I'm dying inside
Each time i see you.
Don't lose sight of me
Cause yer all i see.
Your still all i see.
This road to recovery has taken all i have.
light a match
for i deserve to burn
the moon is down
and heaven is waiting
we both want the world
but we both know that this gets old
if i could open up my chest
then maybe i could find a way
to give you just a little piece of my heart
sometimes i would rather
cut your lips
right off your face
than kiss them goodnight
The moon is down,
and heaven is waiting,
for callers and entries
as we're calling out:
"This is ours, ours, ours.
This one is ours.."
So you think you can change me
Control me, restrain me?
Well I've no, no self-control,
no limits, no boundaries
Content watching my world
crumble around me
In your eyes I see
a darkness that torments you
and in your head where it dwells.
I'd give you my hand
if you'd reach out and grab it.
Let's walk away from this hell.
Can I call you sweetheart or even baby doll?
If I had your number, you'd be getting a phone call
Can I leave you a message on your machine?
Letting you know that you're the bomb
And you blew up on me
I remember you used to pray
For me now you turn your
Head away
Expectations that I never met
Forgotten promises you never kept
I know someday there'll be a
Time when you can look
Me in the eye
Now I write these words just
To keep it clear
In a jaded song you won't
Ever hear
I never
wanted your forgiveness
You did what you ahd to I did
What I could now we've gone
Our separate ways
I never
found comfort in your acceptance
if times a healer
Then I'll sit and wait for
Your poison words to scar.
A notebook filled with a million
Words sits quietly by my side.
Like a loaded gun with the wrong
Intentions they tell me life is pain
I forgot a long time ago, but
Everyday I'm reminded of the way
You put me down, the way you
Put me out, the way you torched
My fucking world
I don't need your lies don't
Need your promises
Don't want your open arms don't
Need your sacred ways and all
I need is all I am today.
What was once belief has now
Turned to grief
And there ain't nothin' more that
You could say
Look to myself for everything I need
Ain't lookin' back on anything.
So you think you got me all figured
Out and you think you know what this
Hate is all about
Don't try to understand,
don't try to comprehend the answer to my words.
When the world comes crashin' down all around
and I need a quiet place to hide.
You'll find me deep inside my head
Under a tree of thought
in a world of pain.
I never wanted you here
I never needed you here
So when you think of me try
To understand
I never wanted your help I
Never needed your hand to
Guided me there your maze
Of lies
To guide me through your
Narrow world
I forgot a long time ago, now
Every day I'm reminded of the
Way you put me down the way
You put me out the way you
Torched my whole world.
there's nothin I wouldn't do to prove
to make these words I promised true
I'd rather live my life alone than without you
you know I'd rather die then to fuck this up
wouldn't get another try
got one chance there's nothing I wouldn't do
I'd walk through fire for you
I'd burn in hell to make it all true
I never loved anyone else in this world but you
a thousand reasons why I try to prove to you
I'm not the other guy
your my godess and I worship you. |
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| hmm again |
[Nov. 11th, 2003|02:29 pm] |
also ever notice how some songs bring back memories of certain things?
long live music |
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| hmmm |
[Nov. 11th, 2003|02:28 pm] |
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every noticed how certain songs make you think of certain people? |
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| who do you trust? |
[Oct. 29th, 2003|09:14 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  bouncy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | midtown-recluse yeaaaaaa son | ] |
hmmm life is exciiiiiiiiiting |
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| hmmm |
[Oct. 28th, 2003|11:28 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | propagandhi - fuck machine | ] |
it makes me feel good to talk to her, but im just afraid to say anything... i dont wanna make an idiot out of myself and my worst fear is rejection. hah i guess im just destined to be alone for the rest of my life, and im used to it enough by now to be ok with it i guess. anyways help me out here ;);) i get to make up my shitty ass programming exam so that puts me in an even better mood. no classes at 8 this week, movies in english...boy life is good (HA) on that note im going to bed later |
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| now im a shadow |
[Oct. 26th, 2003|06:25 pm] |
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this weekend was fucking weird but i guess it was good. this week in school is gonna 1/2 suck and 1/2 be ok cause i have a chemistry exam on monday but class is cancelled for the rest of the week so i dont have to wake up at 730 at all :) next weekend is halloween which really doesnt mean much to me cause i will most likely spend it at my house watching regular tv cause there wont be any fucking cable till november 4th so that sucks. i think im getting ready to leave soon and just not tell anyone that im leaving or where im going. so yea bye |
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| sweet is the sight |
[Oct. 21st, 2003|05:09 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  exanimate | ] |
| [ | music |
| | howie day | ] |
school is starting to kick my ass more and more, and all i really ever do is sit in my room and do nothing. i dont know whats coming over me, and i get made fun of cause i dont wanna go out and do stupid shit. i just wish some people could understand that im just not concerned with the things they are concerned with. life just sucks and i dont care to do anything about it cause im just gonna wind up back at square one like i always do. anyways later |
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| another week flies by |
[Oct. 19th, 2003|12:33 pm] |
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man school sucks dont ever go...no school on monday made the week a little easier but other than that its a fuckin kick in the dick. and the exams in every class next week doesnt make for a good looking next week. this weekend was boring, except for friday was a fun night, out till 4 ehhh...saturday was a drag cause i have no friends and my girlfriend KELLy had better things to do :-\... oh well i still love her more than anyone :P ahah. so yea that brings me to today where i have to read 6 chapters of a gay programming book and study for 5 exams.. LOVEEEE school. and jamie im so sorry about your grandmother :( i dont know what to say to you so i figured i would just leave you alone but im always here to talk if you need anything :( please be ok |
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| new house |
[Oct. 12th, 2003|05:08 pm] |
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i moved into a sick new house in foxboro and it would be all time ownage if it werent for 1) no heat 2) no cable 3) no internet... wat the FUCK am i doing here -_- so yea thats my story, journals suck, girls suck, school definately sucks...and i hate to say it but the sox do suck...however watching 72 year old fat blobs getting tossed by the sloth has to be the best thing ive seen in quite a while :D |
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| the end of an era |
[Aug. 11th, 2003|02:04 am] |
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well this is it...you came, you conquered, and now you are leaving. dont really know what to say about the time that i spent with you; lots of mixed emotions. im not gonna write some crap about how you meant everything and i would kill for you. quite frankly i dont feel like that. great you are leaving - sorry to say i wont be sorry to see you leave. i hope in my life i can find someone who is true in how the feel/act. unfortunately you werent one of them and its time that this step in life ends. have fun in florida and i will have fun wherever i end up. it was nice knowing you goodbye |
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